reworking rewriting an old project for a couple weeks now and let me tell you I’m struggling with it.
Not the story itself. I loved getting reacquainted with the characters. And once I consulted Save The Cat (a screenwriting guide that’s helpful for plotting novels too), I was able to outline a new and improved plot.
The first couple of chapters practically wrote themselves. Then I ground to a halt. For some reason, I hated everything I wrote. I froze when I opened the Word doc to continue drafting. I fell into a funk. HARD.
I lost all confidence in my ability to write.
Some call it writer’s block, some call it procrastination, and some call it an empty creative well. For me, when I’m not writing it’s because I can’t see anything good about my skills. It doesn’t matter that I’ve written a million words. It doesn’t matter that I have published works. It doesn’t matter that people have told me how much they like X, Y, or Z about my stories.
Lack of confidence means all I see are the negatives and I’m blind to the positives.
It totally sucks donkey balls. And I HATE when it happens. I’m basically at a standstill, a dead end, encased in concrete.
I could quit. Then I wouldn’t have to fight myself and feel like crap. I wouldn’t feel guilty about watching TV when I should be writing. I wouldn’t be chastising myself for not working on that cool story that’s nagging at the back of my mind.
But I can’t quit. My friends won’t let me, lol!
And deep down, I don’t want to quit. Because I’ve got more than one story nagging at me. I’ve got more like ten.
And I do know how to write. I just have to remind myself of that.
How do I do that?
I write. And while I write, I let my character(s) talk to me. I transcribe what they see, hear, think, and feel. Once I get in their head(s), the story starts to emerge. And before I know it, I’m writing.
Bottom line: To write, all I have to do is believe in myself.
Sometimes it’s easier said than done.
How about you? How do you believe in yourself?